So Judd has this cool city-building deal he started, and I immediately jumped on it and started typing. About halfway through my entry the interesting work I'd done was eaten (I did something stupid...pushed a button too quickly, and POOF), so I quit, annoyed. Tried again earlier today, typed about eight-hundred words and gave up, then ended up moping around the house depressed the rest of the day.
I gave up because it looks to me as though other people's cities were far more interesting than what I was doing anyways, and reading it over it just wasn't very well written. I'd based it on a city and setting that I use in most of my D&D material, and what I'd written for it four and five years ago was so much more evocative and beautiful than what I was putting together now.
That really depressed me and I started wondering if I'd lost whatever I used to have, if I ever had anything (maybe I became worse than bad).
I really hate feeling this way.
PS: it does not help that I've been feeling down almost constantly since at least the 4th, which has absolutely killed my creativity. Before I couldn't get the energy up to do anything creative, and then I finally do it, and it's trash. Not a good mood booster.
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